Two Months On

It's been a while hasn't it?

lately, i haven't been around the pc long enough to check my facebook page, let alone write in my blog!

I've just returned from a two week break in the Algarve with Steffi and Gary. twas wonderful and extremely relaxing. But the two week spell was not enough to break up the hectic and some times wanting-to-scream-into-a-pillow time I've been having.

Work has been slightly disastrous recently. my team are working themselves blue and not getting the rewards. the fact our manager left us in a deep dark hole didn't help much. I've been doing two peoples jobs for a good few weeks now. sometimes working from half 8 in the morning til half 7 at night. The shop still manages to stay clean and tidy, and we're still taking an awful lot of money for this time of year. I just feel like I'm working my backside off (along with the rest of the team) and we're just banging our heads against a brick wall. I feel extremely let down by certain people and i hope this all gets sorted out soon.

On the other hand, McBride's play went incredibly well, as did it's sister play 'Crave'. The review for 'Ghost...' was a bit luke warm but the review for crave was excellent. The audience out numbered both casts on every night, which is always a bonus! and the after show party went on til after 2 am. which was slightly tiring but all the same fantastic.

The cast of Ghost gave me a present to say thank you. Even though i felt i did a minimal amount of work for the production, they informed my I was constantly smiling and giving hugs of encouragement. To hear this made me feel great. I do believe I'm an optimistic person, I try to smile all the time and on the whole, my life is pretty fabulous. But to hear this at a time when I'm stressing out some what and spending my evening slumped on the sofa with any kind of sugar filled snack made me think again about everything. Basically i just need to take it one day at a time and when something doesn't get done one day, I just say 'f**k it, I'll do that tomorrow'

Not having this attitude before made me crash and burn. I spent two days unable to walk from exhaustion. Not a good sign for someone who hasn't even turned 21. So from now on, I'll try to be the laid back person i was six months ago. Well, that's the plan.

Onto better things, I spent sunday lounging in the Wonderful Jaspers (trademark) garden drinking pims. It was a slightly sad event as two much loved members of the bench are leaving us for hotter places (Spain!) but the fact we had a huge circle of friend throwing up to 5 frisbees (of novelty flying disks, as they shall now be named) at each other, made is a giggling, happy, slightly hyperactive day.

I'm going to say this now, I absolutley adore my friends. They are the people who make me smile. That make me realise 'Hey, there are people out there as crazy as me, isn't it amazing!' I only hug people I feel close to, I hope this means a lot to people.

And then there's that boy McBride. I've never missed anyone as much as I missed him the two weeks I was away. and since I've been back, we've been closer than every. Last night, as we sat on the sofa watching the B.F.G, we just had a fit of giggles. I don't even know what it was about, but even now, R snigger slightly under my breath.

I'm going to grow old with that boy, and we're going to have matching walking sticks and bald patches! Rock on!