All Organized And Rushing Around

It's August! Not that you'd know from looking out the window. Bloody sun is actually scared of England i think, It's up in the sky thinking 'Oh god, Chavs, Sunburnt people, Pimms, BBQ's, i'll just hover over southern Europe for safety reasons.' Bloody hell, if I didn't just spend two weeks in Portugal, I'd be curled up under my duvet by now rocking slightly and humming Mungo Jerry songs under my breath.

So what's new? well, not a lot really. I'm trying my best to be more organised and I must say, it's going well. I went to a local hall today (a typically community centre, cheesy place but still) and arranged my 21st Birthday party. I discovered that I don't need to hire a cheesy DJ but can instead play my own music. Which is good. Let's face it, any DJ in the world would rather play the YMCA than the guillemots. All i need to do now is create a playlist and make invitations. People must dress up as something beginning with C and all the food will also begin with C. ( I know, It's childish but...i don't care)

So that's sorted, as is McBride's Birthday presents. (4th September if anyone wonders, He'll be 24! old man!) I've also got my store up together and it looks Beautiful. I spent the evening with Harris last night blizting the place and it looks lovely...I give it three days max before it's trashed again. Oh well, it is the summer holidays.

I've Sent off my Race for life money...finally, in the end i was able to send off £115 pound which i think was very good considering i kept forgetting to take my sponsership form out with me. I'm now trying to persuade Gary (father man) to compete in a round of golf for Charity. It's all in aid of the Rowans, which is now where my Grandad is living. Bless him, the poor guy is desperate to by my nan things before he shuffles off the the big comfy airchair in the sky. His last offering was a new potato peeler.

Overall, things are getting better (apart from the obvious) so I've got plenty more to smile about now. I'm not stressing. YEY!!!

And So, happy reader, I leave you with this, it's sunny outside, just not immediately outside.

Oh, and if you see my Uncles ex wife, punch the living daylights out of her.

byebye

Two Months On

It's been a while hasn't it?

lately, i haven't been around the pc long enough to check my facebook page, let alone write in my blog!

I've just returned from a two week break in the Algarve with Steffi and Gary. twas wonderful and extremely relaxing. But the two week spell was not enough to break up the hectic and some times wanting-to-scream-into-a-pillow time I've been having.

Work has been slightly disastrous recently. my team are working themselves blue and not getting the rewards. the fact our manager left us in a deep dark hole didn't help much. I've been doing two peoples jobs for a good few weeks now. sometimes working from half 8 in the morning til half 7 at night. The shop still manages to stay clean and tidy, and we're still taking an awful lot of money for this time of year. I just feel like I'm working my backside off (along with the rest of the team) and we're just banging our heads against a brick wall. I feel extremely let down by certain people and i hope this all gets sorted out soon.

On the other hand, McBride's play went incredibly well, as did it's sister play 'Crave'. The review for 'Ghost...' was a bit luke warm but the review for crave was excellent. The audience out numbered both casts on every night, which is always a bonus! and the after show party went on til after 2 am. which was slightly tiring but all the same fantastic.

The cast of Ghost gave me a present to say thank you. Even though i felt i did a minimal amount of work for the production, they informed my I was constantly smiling and giving hugs of encouragement. To hear this made me feel great. I do believe I'm an optimistic person, I try to smile all the time and on the whole, my life is pretty fabulous. But to hear this at a time when I'm stressing out some what and spending my evening slumped on the sofa with any kind of sugar filled snack made me think again about everything. Basically i just need to take it one day at a time and when something doesn't get done one day, I just say 'f**k it, I'll do that tomorrow'

Not having this attitude before made me crash and burn. I spent two days unable to walk from exhaustion. Not a good sign for someone who hasn't even turned 21. So from now on, I'll try to be the laid back person i was six months ago. Well, that's the plan.

Onto better things, I spent sunday lounging in the Wonderful Jaspers (trademark) garden drinking pims. It was a slightly sad event as two much loved members of the bench are leaving us for hotter places (Spain!) but the fact we had a huge circle of friend throwing up to 5 frisbees (of novelty flying disks, as they shall now be named) at each other, made is a giggling, happy, slightly hyperactive day.

I'm going to say this now, I absolutley adore my friends. They are the people who make me smile. That make me realise 'Hey, there are people out there as crazy as me, isn't it amazing!' I only hug people I feel close to, I hope this means a lot to people.

And then there's that boy McBride. I've never missed anyone as much as I missed him the two weeks I was away. and since I've been back, we've been closer than every. Last night, as we sat on the sofa watching the B.F.G, we just had a fit of giggles. I don't even know what it was about, but even now, R snigger slightly under my breath.

I'm going to grow old with that boy, and we're going to have matching walking sticks and bald patches! Rock on!

A fantastic cause!

Yesterday i joined 8000 other women in the Portsmouth Race For Life. Yey me!

Today I'm feeling it. my sides and legs hurt like dillio!

Anyway, that's not the point. the point is that 8000 women ran 5km around the common yesterday morning, another 8000 ran the same length in the afternoon, and even though the reason behind it is a heartbreaking one, the atmosphere was absolutely breathtaking.

My reasons behind running is the fact that my Grandad has been diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and has been given weeks to live. He's come to terms with that and so have we. but I don't want people to have to come to terms with it in the future! That's why I'm running, so my children's children can have a life where they won't have to deal with that disease which we shall not name!

Reading the signs that some of the women pinned to their backs was tear jerking. Girls as young as 10 wearing signs saying 'In memory of my mummy!' seeing these signs made me realise how lucky I am to have had this long without losing someone to the disease we shall not name. It was an eye opener to say the very very least.

Two girls from my theatre company braved to race with me, for which i thank them immensely! as did my Auntie, my Nan and my very very lovely Steffi. She's been through so much already and to hold her hand as we ran over the finish line felt incredible. Bless her, she was the same shade of pink as the sign on her back. The two of us stayed side by side throughout and managed to pass the line in 35 minutes. It was that moment that sealed the deal. It wasn't the £100 pound i raised that made it worth while, it wasn't the fact i got to wear pink leg warmers and a pink tie, it was the fact that I did it with my best friend at my side. seeing the smile on her face when she hugged me, saying 'Bloody hell, we did it!'

I'm so proud of everyone who did the run yesterday. lets hope that in the years to come, we won't have to do things like this to battle the disease that shall not be named!

So Close Yet So Very Very Far

And so Pompey have won the FA cup!

The entire city was a shade of blue all weekend as the team headed to Wembley to beat Cardiff 1-0.

Everyone packed into bars, clubs and houses, the common had a big screen showing the game to a packed castle feild and almost everyone in the city was tipsy by 4 oclock in the afternoon.

and where was i?

Working!

That's right, I was at work, just round the corner from the many bars that played the game. and I have to say that by the end of the day i was thoroughly hacked off. not because i was working, but because i wasn't part of something so big that it swept the whole city into ADHD!

For the first time in 70 years Portsmouth lifted the cup. McBride was on a balcony overlooking Southsea watching as hyper football fans filled the streets, My dad was ah a huge BBQ lapping up the pride, Even Steffi was watching the game. everyone i knew was having the time of their lives being full of pride and respect for the city in which they lived.

And I was working.

Still, onto better things, The July Production rehearsals have begun, and from what I've seen, they're going to be bloody great plays.

Producing is fun!

Lyric Problems

Right, You're A Clever Bunch Of People.

What does This Mean?

~*Tranquilize by the killers, featuring Lou Reed*~

Time it tells living in my home town,

Wedding bells they begin easy

Live it down, baby don't talk that much,

Baby knows, but baby don't tease me.

In the park we could go walking,

Drown in the dark or we could go sailing

On the sea

Always here, always on time

Close call, was it love or was it just easy

Money talks when people need shoes and socks,

Steady boys, I'm thinking she needs me

I was just sipping on something sweet

I don't need political process

I got this feeling that they're gonna break down the door

I got this feeling they they're gonna come back for more

See I was thinking that I lost my mind

But it's been getting to me all this time

And it don't stop dragging me down

Silently reflection turns my world to stone

Patiently correction leaves us all alone

And sometimes I'm a travel man

But tonight this engine's failing

I still hear the children playing

Kick the can, kick the can, skip and blackjack

Steal a car and ring a round-rosey,

Rock and roll, candyland, boogeyman,

Run away and give me your sneakers

Acid rain, when Abel looked up at Cain

We began the weeping and wailing

A hurried high from pestilence, pills and pride,

It's a shame, we could of gone sailing

But heaven knows,Heaven knows everything

Tranquilize

I got this feeling that they're gonna break down the door

I got this feeling they they're gonna come back for more

See I was thinking that I lost my mind

But it's been getting to me all this time

And it don't stop dragging me down

Silently reflection turns my world to stone

Patiently correction leaves us all alone

And sometimes I'm travel man

But tonight this engine's failing

I still hear the children playing

Dead beat dancers come to us and stay

Cause i don't care where you've been

And I don't care what you've seen

We're the ones who still believe

And we're looking for a page

In that lifeless book of hope

Where a dream might help you cope

With the Bushes and the bombs

Are Tranquilized

Answers On A Post Card Please

x

Happiness!

~*He's coming home today.*~

That's all I want to say.

~*I'm so exited i could pop!*~

Cheerios

In a bid to be an Eco-warrior (If i was an Eco-warrior i would definitely have braids in my hair and wear my pants on the outside) I have brought a big shopper bag. I'm being constantly told about how plastic bags are ruining the world (just STOP making carrier bags and people won't use them, simple as) so i popped to my local shops and purchased a very pretty BIG bag.

then I had to go to somerfield to buy some grubgrub. This is where the point of this story actually begins.

Everything fitted rather splendidly into the bag, apart from a box of cheerios. now the point of the exercise was to not use shopping bags, so i just carried the box. new (and by now rather heavy) bag slung over my shoulder and a box of cheerios in he right arm. I think this looks perfectly normal. others seem to think it's odd. By the looks i was getting, you'd think i was leaving a trail of the god damn things whilst singing the final countdown at the top of my voice!

so what, never seen a 20 year old walk down the street eating cheerios straight out of the box before? (oh yeah, i forgot to state the eating part...oh well)

In other so called news, McBride has left for Scotland. At this very moment he is in a room full of people beating himself up in the name of drama! He's all exited because he has a cast for his Play in July. It's all go in McBride land!

Also, This needs to be said just in case i lash out at anyone. I haven't had any chocolate since Friday lunchtime. I decided to see if i could go the week McBride's not here without hugs, kisses or chocolate. So far, it's going well, only one major craving that was forgotten when family guy came on the TV. But I'm slightly worried that my hormone levels will drop and I'll be a limp and lifeless blob. With no endorphins in me, i may just start walking into stuff.

Of Course, Any Bumps and bruised will be reported.

And I wore criss cross tights out on Tuesday and sat in the sun for about an hour. now i have a very embarrassing criss cross tan on my legs! Woop de bloody doo!